Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Time Flies...

Wow it's been a long time since I checked in here. I've been thinking about it, normally in the middle of work or as I'm falling asleep at night, not so helpful really.

Things have been a bit chaotic over the last two weeks. Jeff's sister, brother-in-law and their 8 month old came to visit from Georgia. I had never met her husband and obviously not the baby so I was a little nervous. Would my house be clean enough? (no) Would we have enough money for groceries to feed all these new people? (no) Would they think I was a total dork and tell Jeff he should find someone better? (I don't think that happened, in fact I think I made a fairly good impression, hard to know for sure though).

Then in the midst of all this my Grandmother had some medical issues and I had to spend a lot of time with her in the Salem hospital. So then I worried about Grandma AND my house guests. Would my Grandmother make it through the first night? (yes) Would Jeff keep his family entertained? (not so much) What if they release Grandma from the hospital, will I be able to take care of her until my Mom drove over from Minnesota? (they kept her, after major surgery they tend to do that but I was in panic mode - not used to making life or death decisions for someone) Will Jeff feed his family? Will he help clean up or any of that stuff? Will the baby find fun stuff on our floors to pop into her mouth? (no, no, yes - lots o' cat hair for sure) To top it off we were interviewing for a new person to assist me at work and my birthday also happened somewhere in there. So ya, lots of stuff going on.

My company has now gone home. I really enjoyed having them here, although I didn't see them all that much. I loved having a baby around and I fear I may have sniffed her head so much that all the baby smell is gone. I haven't asked yet but her mother hasn't complained so my guess is that it comes back :P So for that part of the chaos, all's well that ends well.

My grandmother on the other hand... not so well. While in the hospital they found bone cancer on her spine. She is in a tremendous amount of pain and the only way the hospital would discharge her was if Hospice got involved. Luckily, even though she didn't think she needed any help, my grandmother finally agreed to have Hospice on board. I am so so glad. My Mom was not sure how she was going to take care of everything on her own but they send someone everyday to check in and she can have a volunteer come for a couple of hours if she needs some time off. They seem like they are really geared toward taking care of all the family, not just the patient. I am so thankful. Apparently she will most likely only live for a few weeks, maybe a few months if we're lucky. I wish I could just take off the time from work and be there, I've even semi-seriously considered quiting. I don't think I will because I feel like it would be abandoning them at a bad time, but I really feel torn about it. I just don't quite know what I'm doing anymore.

On a brighter note I saw the Yarn Harlot! I went with the lovely Kathy from Vast Amounts of Spare Time. It was wonderful to take a step away from my life and chat with someone. I met a ton of wonderful knitters and sat in the front row to hear Stephanie speak. She literally made my week. I bought her book and almost every page I find something that I read aloud to Jeff. For a muggle I have been pleasantly surprised at how much of this he gets and laughs about. I heart that boy!

Knitting has happened as well. I worked to get this cardigan done for the baby but it didn't quite happen. I am now to the seeming point and hope to have pics for you later this week.

Wow, I think that just typing about all of this has helped, maybe I should share more often.

1 comment:

Kathy said...

Oh, sweetie. I'm so sorry about your grandmother. It's hard having someone you care about so sick and in their last days, regardless of how close or far away you are. And there's such a pull to be there, do something. I'd bet she knows how much you care, and that's the important part. Wishing you some peace, too.

Loved hanging out with you on Friday! We should do that again sometime soon.